I Just Want Out Fast. {138.}

Radhasoami!
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This life seems got not of my asking
I withdraw from it into my own being.


I seek to be neither beggar nor king
Evolved beyond need of thought, emotion, talking, doing.


My best hours are spent but in meditating
Deaf to the world, hearing celestial bells ringing.


Nothing worthwhile has ever come free or easy
Redemption needs deep faith, perseverance bred of sincerity.


Life is a nightmare that cannot long last
Help me Lord, I just want out fast!
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Radhasoami!

I Am Also Verily Human. {136.}

Radhasoami!
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I am as human as any other.


Forgive me, Lord,
but I do also often
question various premises
of the world’s major religions,
including our own Radhasoami religion of Dayalbagh.


Yet I know this faith
lives in my very blood and bones.


Of course, that cannot serve
as clinching evidence
of its fundamental tenets.


It’s too long and arduous
an uphill climb, my Lord,
so Help me
for I at times
weary in my faith.


But I sense Your Love and Grace tugging me,
and I persevere in my honest quest,
despite such occasional fleeting ‘moments’.


May the Supreme Parent Radhasoami Dayal
Mercifully Guide me and all living beings
unto His eternal blissful paradise!
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Radhasoami!

Life is a Brief Opportunity. {75.}

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Radhasoami!

Life is a brief opportunity.

Life is God’s gift to the Jeevas {living beings}.

Birth in human form is priceless
because it enables one
the rare chance of securing salvation.

All else is basically just trash,
if not outright sin,
{sin being defined as
travesty of God’s will}.

Sensual thrills are shortlived,
material possessions cannot be lugged
into the hereafter.

A pity that most people
seemingly live only for these.

True, no person can even
desire God on one’s own;
it is God who gifts
the deserving souls
faith and longing.

So, all that one truly has
are essentially one’s soul
and one’s good deeds.

Life is too brief a dream.

Almost before one even realizes it,
one gets close to losing it.

All this is merely to stress
that one ought to
obey the Buddha’s last words,
by persevering steadfastly for redemption,
which our Revered Leaders also mandate.

That would be a life spent well,
with its purpose realized best,
regardless of all else
that constitutes merely Maya,
or illusory, destructible reality.

Radhasoami!
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My Dissatisfaction is My Guide. {61.}

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Radhasoami!

For years and decades I have been
wrestling with several fundamental questions,
like: “To what purpose? To what end?”

I haven’t really grown
closer to my answers.
Perhaps there aren’t any.

However, life remains a factual
state of existence
that one must live
and bring to its ideal fruition.

This naturally suggests salvation
as the optimal goal.

However, I still feel
none of this is
quite it.

It’s neither what I want
now what can resolve everything.

For one, I have met
extremely few Satsangis who appear
to genuinely live by the Satsang values.

Besides, the believed Satsang values
haven’t exactly been clearly defined.

Times are changing and values
also frequently undergo
subtle, manifest, and radical transformations.

Truth is a mere perspective.
As one evolves,
one acquires a higher perspective.
Everything appears to change altogether.
A different truth, more refined values,
a newer morality, further polished character.
Also, I may add, frequent
misunderstandings and conflicts
with the less evolved ones.

If our ideal itself is vague,
how can it be achieved satisfactorily?

I fear I may yet be
merely wasting my time and efforts.

As a genuine seeker,
I shall not rest short of
the Personal God and final Truth,
the ultimate Destination
and eternal Bliss.

So lead me, my dissatisfaction,
where you do,
I shall follow,
for there is much that I
have rejected in life,
but am yet to realize
my sought fulfillment.

I trust my Guru to merely
Play His Role Effectively.

My faith remains
yet to be realized.
My prayers are
yet to be answered.

I persevere, and await Grace ....

Radhasoami!
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